i miss yall. contacting people has become progressively harder to the point where keeping up with just one friend is hard but i’m glad to say i’m taking steps in the right direction at least. i think i’m gonna just post things when i post em.
especially op shop masterpieces. baby shell minister of the ocean
in more important news the ‘public are not permitted on this dick’ sign was murdered and replaced with a shiny unvandalized doppelganger. pour one out for my good friend who i knew longer than anyone in my life
i’m alive, which is definitely better than i expected.
no MRIs yet or anything, and the lack of neurologists and psychiatrists still makes it so that every appointment i can go to is like once every two months, but hey, i’m pretty sure if they thought i was having any degenerative issues they’d push more, so it is what it is and worrying about that aspect isn’t gonna change things.
so far i just gotta wait and try to be more understanding that what i’ve been doing has been masking all along. the idea of having adhd clicked with me, but having my therapist link me some talks about autism kinda wigs me out because it’s something i’ve suspected a long time, but fought my whole life to not really accept? to the point where i just completely exhausted myself being continuously overloaded. disconnected myself entirely from good friends for what feels like years, let alone any friendships with people nearby, because i was just so busy going day to day fully blanked and having shitty emotional processing.
i’m still not fully understanding the odds and ends of it, but. i know it’s a good thing to finally have a name for it. there’s still that stupid dead weight in my chest about the whole thing. so hopefully writing this is a bit of consolation to myself lol.
it’s not people like me that don’t fit society, it’s just that society hasn’t been built with us in mind.
existing in a way that makes me not fit in isn’t grounds to be ashamed of myself. fuck what anyone close to me thinks about me embarrassing them or being odd, and if i’m overwhelmed, it’s not on me to pretend to be okay to make them feel comfortable when doing that makes me crash for weeks on end.
i’m not sure who’s still active following me but i figure i should Stop Ghosting for like one whole ass minute.
i’m not really active anywhere at the moment. it’s a work in progress. my mind is all kinds of fucked lately and i can’t even put words together properly most of the time. i don’t know what’s brought it on or if it’s a reaction to medication i’ve been taking forever or some medical issue but the brain fog is so bad i feel like i’ve taken five steps back without realizing it until it’s too late.
there’s no psyches out here that deal with adhd. actually there’s only two in the town and my appointment with one is literally in april over skype. i’m just gonna look into perth at this rate. i’m so tired of being a burden.
I don’t even get the appeal of a tiny super fragile dog. What’s the point
And in dogs they often come with dental problems and heart problems and are so fragile they can break their pelvis and legs by jumping off a couch (not hyperbole, I’ve seen it happen), and they often don’t live past 6 or 7 years old despite being small breeds that should regularly be making it to the mid or late teens.
They are a money-making marketing scam to get you to buy unhealthy animals. Don’t do it. They’re not ‘cute’.
In addition, a lot of ‘teacup’ dog breeds are… already very small. I see a lot of people saying teacup chihuahuas are different because they’re under 10lbs. The chihuahua standard specifically states that they are not to exceed 6lbs already. My chihuahua isn’t even well bred and she is under 6lbs despite being over the very tiny height limit. I went to a dog show and met chihuahuas that were 3-5lbs. A chihuahua is ALREADY an impossibly tiny dog if sourced correctly. A 'teacup chihuahua’ is supposedly even smaller than that, and keep in mind that a regular chihuahua is already a fairly delicate dog that needs special consideration due to their size.
Toy poodles? Same thing. Yorkies? Same thing. These tiny dogs are already touching the limit of how small a dog can be before it becomes unhealthy just for simple fragility. I can’t imagine a dog smaller and more delicate than my little one.
The appeal often is the novelty and the living toy factor. Unfortunately for both, the dog always suffers when this happens. Tiki is a little taller but otherwise a regular sized chihuahua and she was already a novelty living toy with her previous owners. I don’t think a smaller dog would have survived the health problems she’s had from their neglect, considering the size she is and the fact that she almost died herself.
